A whole lot of change, and a whole lot of confusion

Sometimes things happen, and it's hard to get a grip on them. After the fact, it's easy to see what should have been done, and how I should have reacted. The last seven years of my life have been that way for me especially. I am starting this blog as a journal of sorts. A way to reflect on my journey to become Mandy again. I'm hoping to be able to look back on this blog and see the good out of all this. I am definitely a firm believer that we go stronger out of trials, and in a sense, I am putting this to test.
I also think this could be very therapeutic for me. Occasionally, amidst all of my meanderings into my deepest thoughts, I will address this blog directly to my mom. I know she is still around me, even if I can't see her. But I can feel her, and I want to have that connection again. I know the road ahead is going to be rocky, but I believe that "anything worth having, is worth doing". This has been one of my main mantras this past year. Sometimes I feel as if I am constantly chanting this to myself. So, with head up, I will face this new world of mine with the Savior by my side, hoping that little by little, I can become the Mandy I hope to be.